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Drip of Water

Drip of Water

This is a very hard post for me to write.  It is my first, non-recipe post in quite some time, and the topic that God has laid up on my heart is weighty.

What crushes my spirit this morning is that my youngest daughter has recently expressed doubt about the reality of God.  She is struggling that the Bible may just be a story that someone wrote…not the inspired Word of God.  She is questioning if there are alternative answers to the questions, “How did we get here” and “How was everything created.”  Last night, she said that although she has prayed the prayer to accept Jesus, she is not sure as to the reality of it all, and therefore, has not really committed herself to Him.

As a parent, this was a crushing blow to my soul.  I know the effects that doubt can have…it’s like a slow drip of water that etches away at foundation of your soul.  Its effects are plaguing, even inwardly decaying, and can drown all sense of hope and joy.  Doubt destroys inner peace.

As her doubts have surfaced, my overall level of anxiety has increased.  I want to fix this for her, but I know I can’t.  I can’t believe for her. I can’t magically take these feelings away.  I can’t make this one all better.

This morning, as I was thinking and praying about this…I was struck that she is not the only one with doubts.  They also exist…in me.  Ugh.  As hard as it is for me to admit this, I had to face the fact that I am holding on to doubts about God.  Doubts about His sovereign power in my daughter’s life.  Doubts about His ability to cure her doubting fears.  The fact is that my anxiety is a sign that I have taken her out of His arms and put her into mine.

Oh, Lord, please forgive and help my unbelief!  As Abraham had awe-inspiring heights of faith to place his beloved Isaac on the altar, may I do the same with my babe.   She is not mine to save, but Yours.  It is not my work that will bring her into heaven, but Your completed work on the cross.  Not to my glory, but all glory in salvation is for You. (Link to LIFE post)

As I confess and repent from my own doubts, I know what I must do.  Signs of doubt illuminate a muted view of God.  So then to douse the doubt and increase my faith, I must elevate my view of God.  I must meditate on the scope of His character, the vastness His resources, and the depth of His sovereign love. Therein lies the cure to restore my inner peace.  Therein is the balm for my heavy heart.

Philippians 4:7-8 (NIV)

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.



As you may have noticed, Stewardchicks trends toward clean eating.  Many people today intentionally avoid impurities in what we consume to maximize our health and longevity.  But, what about impurities in our minds and in our hearts?  What can we do about that?

Having a living, active relationship with Jesus Christ is the most important thing you can do in this life.  The Bible tells us that God is absolutely holy.  That means that we cannot stand before Him with even the smallest trace of sin.  The truth is, we’ve all sinned.  Even though we live a “good,” moral life, we still do wrong things.  And, because of those wrongs, no matter how small, we are totally unable to right our wrongs before a holy God on our own.  In that state, we face eternal and rightful separation from God, experiencing His terrible wrath against sin.  Can you see our desperate need?

BUT, praise our Creator in heaven, He loves us so much that He has given us the singular solution to our desperate need in the person of His perfect Son, Jesus.  On the cross, Jesus gave His life paying the full price for our sins.  He did this so that we could have a true and living relationship with God.  It was and is the only way.  

Jesus wants to forgive you.  But, He does not force us.  Like reaching out to receive a present, we have to reach out and take hold of His gift of grace and forgiveness.  If you desire this gift, then in your heart, turn to Jesus, tell Him you need Him, and ask Him for mercy.  Open your heart to receive Jesus.  Your life satisfaction and eternal eternity depends entirely on what you do with Jesus in this life.

For those who do know the saving gift of God’s grace, we have the assurance from God Himself that we will experience His glory for all of eternity.  May we not stay silent.  May we proclaim God and His glory until there is no more breath in our lungs.